Chapter Four: Leah

Well, I said that I would find her, didn’t I? However, I have no idea what I’m going to do. Part of me so deeply wants to get revenge, and another part of me wants to be good so I can keep moving down levels. I think I might just do a little bit of both…

          So, since it looked like I did not have a roommate to talk to, I guess I had to keep myself busy. I was off to the “movies” again. But who should I go see? I saw Peter last time I was there. Oh! I know who I should see. I should definitely check in on my brother. I wonder if anyone ever told him about my death. No one can probably even reach him. God only knows where he is. Wow, I wish I could speak to him.

          Once I managed to get myself ready to leave the room, I started to just think about my brother, Blake. No one had heard of him in so long. Maybe, maybe he could be… No, he couldn’t be. Could he? Well, that’s a stupid question. Of course he could be here! It’s not like it’s impossible for him to die. He has to die eventually. I just really hope that he is not here and that he is out there back on Earth. I hope that Blake is living a magnificent life. I hope that he has fallen in love, done everything he has ever wanted to do, and is the man he always wanted to be. Just please; please do not let him be here.

          I got to the theater, and I put in all of Blake’s information. Then, I walked into the theater so I could finally see my brother. He has to be alive, right? Otherwise it wouldn’t have worked. Oh god, I hope that he’s okay.

          Three…

          Two…

          One…

          There he was. Blake and his lanky, tall body. He still has the natural tan that he always had. His hair color was the same as mine, and his eyes; dark brown. He looked the same he did the last time I saw him. However, he just looked older. Blake looked more mature, happier actually. Blake looked happy, and that was the first time I could ever remember seeing him look happy.

          When Blake and I were growing up, we had it rough. Our mom was either always out, or worse; she was at home. When mom was out, we mostly were just stuck with each other. We didn’t mind it though. Well, at least I didn’t mind it. I always felt bad that Blake had to stay behind a lot of the time and watch me. The poor boy never got to go out with friends, because he had to take care of his little sister.

          However, when mom was in, that was the absolute worse. Mom always had a boyfriend. The only time I can remember her not having one, was when her and Tyler broke up for those few days. But, I’m not exactly sure if those counted.

          Anyways, our mother’s boyfriends were just horrendous. They were absolutely disgusting, and just awful. Sometimes, they would pick on Blake and me. It wasn’t always bad what they had to say to us. However, as I started to get older, they would start to hit on me when mom wasn’t around. For example, the one who uh, the one who raped me. But, Blake always tried his best to make sure they would stay away from me.

          Alright, back to the “movie.” Blake was sitting in a restaurant with a girl. She was beautiful. The girl looked like she could be a super model. Her longs were quite long; she had shoulder length blonde hair, and what looked like the blue eyes; just like the ocean.

          The two of them were sitting in a booth talking to one another. Oh my god, he looked so happy.

          “So, I’m really glad you finally agreed to come out with me, Ashley,” said Blake.

          Ashley blushed, “Well, how could I say no for a fourth time?”

          “Thank god, you were starting to hurt my ego.”

          “Oh, I doubt that could happen,” they both laughed.

          “Well,” said Ashley. “I think you should tell me about yourself.”

          “And why is that,” Blake smirked at her.

          “Because, you’re Blake Night. The biggest mystery at school! It’s not like I can go on this date, and not at least try to figure out some information about you.”

          Blake smiled at her, “I guess that’s only fair. Well, what would you like to know?”

          “Everything,” Ashley giggled.

          “Hmm, that’s quite a lot. Just ask me anything, and I’ll answer.”

          “Tell me about your family, maybe?”

          Blake looked at Ashley, and you could tell that something was bothering him. The look he gave her was just filled with so much agitation. “If this is about my sister, I already told everyone that I don’t know much. I only just came into contact with my mother,” Peter said angrily.

          Ashley’s face grew pale. She looked as if she had no idea what Blake was talking about. Was my murder all over the news? If so, where has this girl been to not hear about it?

          “Blake, what are you talking about,” asked Ashley.

          “My sister and her murder. Obviously this is all what this was about. I really liked you, but you only wanted the gossip.”

          Blake started to get up, but Ashley pulled his arm so he would sit back down. “Blake, if you don’t recall, I transferred here. So, I honestly have no idea what happened to your sister. But, I’m terribly sorry for your loss, and hope that everything turns out alright for you and your family. I like to hear how a man talks about his family before I continue to see them. So, that’s the only reason why I brought them up. I’ll leave you alone, I’m sorry for the misunderstanding.”

          Ashley got up and walked away. Blake sat in his chair, with his head in his hands. He looked as if he was so terribly confused. Blake finally snapped out of it, and he jumped out of his seat and ran for the door. After he was out of the restaurant, he started looking around the streets and sidewalk like a crazy person. Once he finally spotted Ashley a few yards away he started running towards her. He caught up to her and grabbed her arm, and she turned around and just stood there looking at him.

          The two of them just stood there on the sidewalk looking at each other. They looked absolutely perfect with each other. I had seen my brother with a ton of girls at school before, however this one just absolutely ruled out all of the others. Just the way they looked together; it was breathtaking.

          Blake and Ashley were still standing there looking at each other, and then eventually Ashley broke the silence. “What do you want,” she asked.

          “Please, let me explain. I’m sorry, I really am,” said Blake.

          “No, it’s fine. I understand that you’re going through a rough time,” Ashley looked away from him. “You don’t have to explain anything to me.”

          “Come on, Ashley. I want to. I honestly have not even talked to anyone about it. I want you to help me, please?”

          Ashley looked up at Blake, “Fine.”

          Blake looked at her with such longing, and he smiled. “Okay, come on. Let’s go back inside the restaurant.”

          The two of them walked back into restaurant in silence. They sat back down at a table, and didn’t say anything for a few minutes. “Well,” said Ashley. “Are you going to talk?”

          “Okay,” said Blake. “It’s a long story. Are you okay with that?”

          Ashley nodded, and Blake cleared his throat. “Well, the day I turned eighteen I left home, and I told my little sister who was fifteen at the time, that I would come back for her when she was eighteen.”

          “Why did you leave?”

          “Well, I just had a really rough home life. Our mom had us both when she was a teenager, and we have different dads. However, she gave me my sister’s dad’s last name. He was there for a little while, but then he left us. My mom was only fourteen when she had me and seventeen when she had my sister. So, obviously she had no idea how to deal with our dad leaving.”

          Ashley was already beginning to look horrified with our life story. “Did you ever meet your father?”

          “No, the man raped my mother. So, she has absolutely no idea who my father is. But, not a single one of us gives a fuck to try to find out who he is.”

          “Oh my gosh, that’s horrible,” said Ashley.

          “If at any time you want me to stop, and you leave, I am perfectly fine with that. I understand this is not something people are used to hearing.”

          Ashley looked at Blake with a stunned expression. “Of course, I told you that I’ll listen to what you had to say. I’m glad I am.”

          Blake smiled weakly at her. “Anyways, like I said. I told Leah that I would come back for her when she was eighteen. When I left, Leah and my mom were living in Oregon. Mom didn’t have a boyfriend at the time, but she never goes long without having one.”

          “After sometime that I left, Leah called me to tell me that they were moving to Arizona. I asked her to send me their new address. I guess they moved to somewhere in Tucson.”

          “Did you ever go see them at all? I mean, it’s not like Tucson is that from Palm Springs. It’s maybe a six hour drive.”

          “Oh I know, but I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t go back and face my mother.”

          Blake stopped talking for a few minutes and drifted off into space. He eventually realized that he drifted away, and started talking again. “Well, they didn’t live there that long anyways.”

          Ashley looked confused. “What do you mean they didn’t live there that long?”

          “Oh, I’m getting there. Just wait, love,” Blake winked at her.

          Ashley giggled. “Well, on Leah’s sixteenth birthday she called me, crying in hysterics. She told me that our mom had kicked her out, and that the boyfriend had some sort of control over her.”

          “Control? What did she mean about that?”

          “When my mom is in a relationship, she would let the man take absolutely complete control over her. It was ridiculous, but she had no idea what else to do.”

          “Anyways,” said Blake. “Leah had told me that she always got in a fight with her boyfriend that day. The poor girl was having a rough sixteenth birthday. She told me that she was on her way to a friend’s house though. Leah said that she would call me in the morning.”

          “Did she call you in the morning,” asked Ashley.

          “No, she didn’t. But you know who did?”

          Ashley shook her head no. “My mother called me,” said Blake.

          Ashley looked puzzled, “What did she say to you?”

          Blake looked at Ashley, “She called me to tell me that my sister had been murdered. The police weren’t able to tell if Leah had tried to commit suicide, or if someone had snuck into the house and attacked her.”

          “But what about her friend? Wouldn’t the attacker have gotten her friend as well?”

          “That’s something that everyone has been questioning. No one knows exactly what happen. Except for her friend, Roxy green. Apparently her brother, Pete Green was there that night as well.”

          “What do you think happened,” Ashley asked intriguingly.

          “I think that her friends did something to her. There is no way in hell that my sister killed herself.”

          “Why do you think that?”

          “Well, for starters, she was stabbed. Leah was absolutely terrified of knives. She had aichmophobia. There is no way in hell that she would have even picked up a knife,” Blake explained.

          Ashley began to tear up. “I am so sorry, Blake. I am so, so sorry.”

          Ashley got up, and walked around the table to hug my brother. They wrapped their arms around each other, and it looked like such an amazing warm embrace. Then, Blake pulled away, and he kissed Ashley.

After Blake kissed Ashley the screen went black. I just sat there in the theater for a few minutes, and I didn’t even realize that I was crying until the man in the suit walked up to me and asked if I was okay.

          “Excuse me,” said the man.

          I wiped off my face really quick, and looked up at him. “I’m sorry,” I said.

          “Oh please, miss. Don’t be sorry. But, if I may ask, are you Leah Night?”

          “That’s me,” I said.

          The man handed me a card that told me to go to the front desk, and that I was going to be moved down levels. “Thank you,” I said to the man without realizing that he had already left.

          I got up, and walked down to the front desk. Olivia was there behind the desk. She looked up at me, and said, “Hey there, Leah. How are you, honey?”

          It was always nice to see Olivia. The woman never once looked unhappy. “I’m doing well, thank you,” I handed her my card.

          Olivia did her thing on the computer until she found my new information. “Okay, Leah. It looks like you are being moved to level eleven. You are in room ninety two. You do not seem to have a roommate yet.”

          I was upset at the fact that I didn’t have a roommate yet. Oh, well. It’s probably for the better. At least I wasn’t assigned to Molly as a new roommate again.

          I began walking to my room, and then I remembered what Aly told me about the levels. I started at fifteen, and I’m already at eleven. I am definitely moving fast here. I wonder what it’ll take me to get to level one. More importantly, what’s going to happen once I’m done moving down? What in the hell happens after Soul Castle?

Chapter Three: Molly

      About a few weeks have passed since Leah found out about her death, which means it has been a few weeks since I have felt not scared. I am honestly terrified to cross paths with her. Revenge is definitely one of Leah’s specialties. Leah is a lot smarter than she leads on, so if someone makes her mad enough her intelligence shows off in her plans to get back at them. Sadly, I am now one of those people. Oh dear god, I wish that I wasn’t.

          I have been a total shut in lately, so I have decided to go to the “movies” and check in on some people. I have some people who definitely need to be checked on. For example, Pete and Roxy Green. Oh, and let us not forget Tyler Hart; the mastermind of the entire god damn plan. Those people just totally disgust me now. I’ll admit, when I first met them, before it all happened, I thought they were the most amazing people I had ever met. They were just so intriguing. However, like most things, they were too good to be true. They changed, my god did they change. Nothing was ever the same after the day they told me their secret. Everything was quite different after that. Well, they told me to act the same, but it was all different in my head.

          Anyways, so I had to make my way to the “movies” quick, because I didn’t want to run into Leah. Thankfully she was nowhere to be seen. But you know who was; that little boy. He was out on the stairs again, just following me and staring at me. Next time I see him I definitely need to try to figure out what is wrong with that child. Obviously he is dead, but he just looks so scared and lost every time I see him. He looks as if he has no idea where he is. I wonder if the child even knows that he’s dead. Is that even possible here? There are just so many people around you would think that someone would tell him that he is no longer alive. However, by the looks of his clothes, he seemed as if he might have died decades ago. But you never know though, right? I just need to remember to not feel scared, and to approach him next time. The boy could probably use a lot of help.

          So when I got to the “movies” I had to put in Pete and Roxy’s information as usual. However, then I realized that I don’t know when they were born. Would the birthdays that they originally told me work? They couldn’t possibly work. That would just be insane.

I mean, considering what they actually are, the birthdays shouldn’t work. Or should they because of their form? I put in the birthdays that they gave me anyways, just so I could at least try something. I had to wait there for a while though, because it was taking forever to tell me if I could go in to the theater or not. Then eventually after waiting there for what felt like forever, I finally got the go to go inside.

As I walked into the theater this eerie feeling came among me. Everything just seemed so different at that moment for some reason. Was it because of who I was checking up on? Possibly. Pete and Roxy usually did bring that type of felling whether they were present, or even if they were just being spoken of. It makes sense once you know who, or what they really are. I’m not even supposed to know what they are actually. I found out, maybe that’s why they did this to me. Maybe I was just too curious? I have no idea. It shouldn’t matter that I found out about them. They still had absolutely no right to do what they did. It is just absolutely unspeakable. It’s completely insane.

Anyways, the film was beginning on the screen. It zoomed in on this girl with long dark hair, and coffee colored skin. She was beautiful. Just one simple look at her and you would be in awe with her beauty. Her brother on the other hand, he was so unbelievably handsome. He was tall, his skin had the most perfect tan, he had the cute curly brown hair, that adorable smile, and the most amazing green eyes I had ever seen. Just simply looking into his eyes would make you melt into a puddle.

The two were sitting in a park talking to one another. It looked like it must have been summer time. Everyone around them, and including them were wearing shorts and t-shirts; all in summer clothing. However, I have no idea where they were though. Yes, I know that they were in a park. But, I don’t know what state, city, or anything. There was not even a sign that said what the name of the park was. Maybe they were in some gated community park? I have no idea. Let’s focus on what they were speaking about though.

“So I think everyone has finally given up on what really happened to her,” said Roxy.

“Are you sure though? I know that the cops definitely stopped a while ago, but what about her parents,” asked Pete.

“Oh, honey. Her parents never cared,” Roxy laughed. “I highly doubt they ever even tried to find out what happened to her.”

“That is true. Her mother pretty much left town once she found out. She probably realized how lucky she was that Leah was finally gone.”

Roxy giggled. “Oh my god, I know! That girl was so annoying, and always full of so much drama. She had such a fucked up family life, it was ridiculous.”

“Good ridden,” said Pete.

“Do we know if anyone tried to look for the other girl?”

“I’m not sure, what was her name again,” asked Pete.

Wow, he could not even remember my name. That really shows how well they worked me into their plan, and how little they really did care. I thought they cared so much. Boy was I wrong!

“Hmm,” said Roxy. “It started with an M.”

“Martha?”

“No, that’s not it. Was it Max?”

“That’s a boy’s name, dumbass,” said Pete.

“Oh! I know. I think it was Molly.”

Well it’s about time. Holy hell, it’s not a hard name. “Yeah, that’s it,” said Pete.

“I wonder if anyone tried to find her.”

“I don’t think so, she wanted to run away anyways, remember?”

“Yeah, you’re right. People probably just think that she left.”

“I don’t know what else they would think of her. I mean, she was a trouble maker, and always getting into shit. So, most people probably just think that she is just causing some more trouble somewhere else. No one is going to think of any crazy solutions, and come up with reasons on what actually happened to her.”

“Alright, so then we should be in the clear,” Roxy smiled.

“Hell yeah we are,” he smiled back at her.

The picture zoomed out from them, and then the screen eventually went black. I could not believe the nerve of them. They think that they can get away with what they did. However, I don’t think they will. I think that something will happen to them. Eventually, they will end up here, and I will find them. I will do to them what they did to me.

“Wow,” I said. “They could not even remember my name.”

I heard a giggle somewhere behind me. I turned around to see who it was. Guess who. Yep, it was Leah. I was shocked that she found me, and I’m sure that I showed it on my face.

“It’s not so great when someone kills you now, is it,” Leah said.

I just kept looking at her. I had no idea what to say. “Leah…”

“Surprised much? Wow, I thought you would have more to say.”

“I’m…”

Leah interupted me. “You’re what? You’re sorry? Well, wouldn’t that have been nice to hear once we first saw each other again.”

“You don’t understand, Leah,” I mumbled.

“Oh, I don’t understand? Then please, Molly. Please inform me on what I don’t understand. I would really like to know.”

“I just can’t tell you right now, okay?”

Leah laughed. “I’m sure you can’t.”

Leah got up and started walking towards the door. She stopped halfway, and turned back towards me. “Molly?”

I looked over at her, “Yeah,” I said.

“This will not be the last of me,” Leah said, and then walked out the door.

Chapter Two: Leah

This is all going to drive me crazy. I have been sitting in my room the past couple days, just trying to think what could have caused all of this to happen. I cannot think of a logical explanation as to why my best friend would help them with my murder. This is all just ridiculous. It makes you wonder what is real, and what is not. I never believed in ghosts, spirits, or demons. However, those people in that house on that night; were not human. They were far from it.

How long have I been in this room? It seems as if I have been in here for an eternity. Will I get a new roommate? I hope so. I would not want to be here all alone. It would be the first time I have been alone since I have got here. I am not sure if I am ready for that yet.

“I need to get out of here,” I said to myself.

But where should I go? I do not have a roommate to help me out. Maybe I should stop by Savannah’s office. She might be able to help me figure things out. I do not think that I’ll be able to figure all of this out myself.

I need Molly as well. I would sure as hell love to talk to that girl. She was supposed to be my best friend! We grew up together, and as soon as I leave she plots against me with two, two… Whatever the hell those two were! How did my death, wait no. Not my death; my murder. How did my murder benefit them?

Peter. Peter would be able to help me. Sadly, Peter is not here. I cannot see him anymore. I wonder how long it has been. Maybe I should go see him at the “Movies.” It would be amazing seeing him again. I miss him so much. Him and I may not have been together long, but we did fall for each other pretty fast. Our love was like a flower; it grew every day, and the beauty of it showed when it bloomed.

I know what I am going to do now. I am going to go see Savannah, and then I am going to peek on Peter. That should help, right? I hope it will. I just needed to change before I left.

When I walked into the bathroom I took another look at the damage my friends did to me. It was different looking at them after I found out what really happened to me. The bruises all along my arms; Pete tried to rape me and held me down so I would not get away. An X shaped scar over my heart; Tyler had cut into my skin to mark the spot. A part of the X shaped scar a little thicker; Amanda had stabbed me in the heart.

How long should it take for someone to get over an attack? A day? A week? A month? A year? After they are dead? Well, I was not given any time to cope. I was brutally attacked, and murdered. I am not going to let those people think it is all right. Bad things will come to them. If bad things do not come to them, I will send bad things to them myself.

I could not look at the damage on myself any longer. It was time to go see Savannah. I needed to talk to someone about all of this. It was time to wipe up the tears, and go speak to someone.

I walked outside of my room for the first time in days. Everything was still the same, of course. Nothing seems to change in Soul Castle. There are new people each and every day. However, the surroundings all seem to stay the same.

I started for the stairs, and passed a lot people. It’s strange how you can see a ton of strangers, and not know a single thing about them. You do not know what is going on with their life, or after life. You do not know if they were murdered or died peacefully. You do not know if they were so sad, and thought that the only way out was to kill themselves. You do not know anything about them. They could be having the best day of their lives, or they could be having the worse. They could be completely happy, or incredibly sad. You should always smile at these people, at the strangers you see everywhere around you. Just one smile. You never know, your smile could get them through the rest of the day. Their smile in return could help you with yours.

I got to Savannah’s office, and she was already sitting in there waiting for me. She was just sitting there, waiting. I walked in and said, “I need to talk to you.”

“Please, Leah. Sit down.”

I sighed. “Okay. But like I just said, I need to talk to you. I’m very confused lately. I am quite mad as well.”

“I figured you might have been going through some things. I take it you did sleep.”

“Yes,” I yelled.

I was beginning to get frustrated. Savannah kept asking me questions. I wanted to tell her what happened. “Now can you please stop with the questions, so I can tell you what happened to me?”

Savannah sighed. She looked tired. “By all means, go ahead.”

“Thank you,” I said. “So, I was right. It was my birthday when everything happened. The whole day was just one big major disaster. I had gotten in a fight with everyone except Peter and Roxy. My boyfriend, Peter, and I got in a massive argument. I cheated on him. I know I did wrong, and I regret it more than ever. So, after him and I got in our fight I went back to my house. I got home and Tyler, my mom’s ex-boyfriend was there. He had convinced her that I was no good, and that it was time to kick me out of the house. So, she did. I had nowhere to go. However, then I remembered that Roxy said I could come over, and stay there if I needed to. I took her up on the offer. When I got there, everything had just seemed so creepy; unwelcoming. Everything was quite ominous. However, none of that fazed me at the moment, because I just wanted a place to stay. I went inside and Roxy showed me around.”

I stopped to take a breath from my rambling. Savannah looked quite interested so far. “There weren’t any adults at their house,” she asked.

“No, there was not. Roxy and Pete had told me before that their mom worked a lot, so she was hardly ever home. So, after Roxy had shown me around she gave me a cup of hot chocolate. However, it was not just hot chocolate that was in the cup. I almost instantly nocked right out. I don’t remember exactly what happened after I woke up, but I remember Pete tried to rape me. He was holding on to my arms really tight. He didn’t rape me though.”

“Why not,” asked Savannah.

“Roxy stopped him. She said that someone was there. After she said that, the next thing I knew Pete threw me off of the loft. I did not fall to the ground though. Roxy caught me. She started carrying me to her mother’s room. Well, what I was told was her mother’s room. She brought me into the bathroom first. She did my makeup, and got me all dressed up. I was like her Barbie doll.”

“How interesting,” said Savannah? “This is all so intense and crazy.”

“Oh, believe me. I know. So, after she was finished with me, she brought me into the actual bedroom part. I still couldn’t move, because of whatever they gave me. She laid me down on the floor, and I heard a man talking. You know who it was? Tyler, my mom’s ex-boyfriend. I don’t remember what he said to me, but he took a knife and cut an X into my skin right over my heart. I heard someone say, ‘I am so sorry my California sister.’ There is only one person who could have ever said that to me. My best friend, Molly May. Guess what she did right after she apologized? She stabbed me. She stabbed me right in my fucking heart.”

“Oh my gosh! I know that girl, Leah. I have seen her around here for therapy. She killed you? She couldn’t have. That girl is such a sweetheart,” Savannah was beyond shocked from the story.

“I saw her crystal clear, Savannah. I know it was her!”

I was getting aggravated. Did she not believe me? Molly even confessed in her letter to me. Maybe coming to Savannah was a bad idea. “Calm down, Leah.”

“I will not calm down! I was murdered, that girl murdered me. We were best friends! You don’t just go around murdering your best friends. You just don’t.”

“I’m sure there is a logical explanation as to why she did it. Surely she did not do it all on her own if those other people were there. Have you talked about it with her since you found out?”

“No. She got moved down a level or two. I haven’t seen her since.”

“You should talk to her, Leah.”

By then I was outraged. “I will not speak to her! That bitch better think twice about crossing my path. She has no idea what is coming to her!”

I yelled at Savannah, and then I left. I did not let her bother with speaking to me, and trying to calm down. It was pointless. Could she seriously be taking her side? This is all just too ridiculous.

It was time to go to the “Movies” and see Peter. Seeing him will making everything better for at least a little while. I just needed to be able to make it there without completely breaking down, and losing control over the day.

On my way to the “Movies” I saw a ton of people. I saw happy people, sad people, people who were on the verge of tears, people laughing so much their stomach hurt, people in love, and people who were alone. I felt like one of the people who were alone. I so desperately just wanted to give up on the day, and drop right to the ground and scream. I did not do that though. I thought to myself, just a little bit longer and I’ll be fine. A little bit longer, and I could see his face. He won’t be able to see me, but I just want to see him. Oh, what I would give to be with him again.

When I got to the “Movies” I put in his name and everything else. I sat down in a seat, and waited for the love of my life to show up on the screen. Three… Two… One…

There he was. Oh my dear lord. Peter. Peter did not look anything like the Peter I remembered. This man that was on the screen was not the same. His blond hair was now all shaggy. His clothes were wrinkly and tattered. His facial hair had become scruff. There were dark circles underneath his eyes from lack of sleep. Then, there were his eyes. His eyes were the same eyes. However, they were so immensely sad. There was not one ounce of happiness on that man.

Peter was sitting down in grass, and it looked like he was in a cemetery. I could not see the head stone though. He was blocking it. Peter was just sitting there. He was not speaking, or anything. He almost looked peaceful. However, you would have to be crazy to think that he actually did look peaceful. Anyone could see how sad this man looked.

Peter had moved a little, and I could see the head stone. It was mine. Oh my dear lord. My head stone! This is all so surreal. Why was he at my grave though? He and I did not leave off on good terms whatsoever. I cheated on him. Maybe he has forgiven me? That is crazy, because I still have not forgiven myself.

Oh, Peter. How I wish I could just scoot up into your lap, and wrap my arms around you. I would tell you that I am fine. I miss you, I miss you, and I miss you.

I looked at Peter closely, and he had begun to cry. This was just way to heartbreaking. He opened his mouth like he was about to say something. Peter looks up at the head stone through his tear stained eyes and says, “I still love you, Leah.”